Instead of focusing on a plan, I'm wondering when a plan is going to present itself. I spend so much time wondering that I feel like I'm trying to control my future before it can reach me. I'm trying to control my life without having any idea about what direction it's going in.
Every day I think about what I want, but not about how to get it or about the things I already have. My mind is always hopping a hundred different trains of thought and rarely jumping off to rest with an idea.
I feel like if I would just stay in one place for a little while than I could start to figure out where I'm going. That makes sense. Basketball would nearly be an impossible sport if the hoop was always moving all over the court. How is life supposed to fall into my lap if I'm never in one place?
I can't expect myself to learn to sit still, but maybe I can try slowing down. I'll start small. Walking slower, writing slower, taking my time, trying to be more patient.
Ah there it is.
Patience.
I need to stop expecting things in life to happen instantaneously, and being upset when they don't. I need to be patient with my music, and my art... than maybe I can actually become a songwriter instead of a singer, and a choreographer rather than just a dancer. Growth takes time and focus.
Focus.
Growth takes patience, focus, and energy invested into the things you're passionate about.
Passion.
No matter where my path leads, or what my future holds, I'm never going to be content unless I'm doing what I love. I'm never going to be truly happy unless I have faith in my dreams.
Dreams.
